Disorder.

The title does in a sense, suit my current condition. I'm not really stressed out or what. It's just that things aren't really in place in my life now. Sleeptime, eat time, whatever time. Disorder is the only word I can think of in terms of relating it to one another. Well maybe I'm not doing stuff in the right way, as always.

Aside of that, I think things around me are kinda changing. Like how people react, how things work, casual stuff like that. I wonder if I'm actually kinda laid back behind, or are things going on a move too fast for me? Nevertheless, in such a crude way of living, probably it's the former then the latter.

School life is ok, but some stuff kinda screwed up for me. Guess I was too stupid to do such things without clear and full consideration of the consequences. Not that I mind though, but I just didn't expect that it might jeopardize our friendship. I know it's kinda hard to look at me at the same way but... I'm still me, and you're still you. Well you know, you did make a little change in me. I get to look at things in a more cheerful way, I can smile more when you're around, and I don't feel so stressed when looking at you. But lol, we're better off as buddies in the end. Can't thank you enough for the changes that you made to me.