Whee~

Oh well, again and again another normal day it is today. What was I thinking actually? Yesterday was like... chaos in my mind. Yeah, it's chloey birthday I know. Who's that you ask... well, I gotta say that she's one cute girl. I kinda like her but... it's just kinda not right. It's not that kind of "like" till you wanna be together with her... maybe not.

Ah... who cares. She's a cute girl who always smiles, and that other dude looks like a good guy too. + it's really none of my business to say like "hey I ain't happy with all of this". She's just a... friend I guess.

I'm just another outsider, that's why. Can't really cope with everyone. I'm trying, but something just seems to be a bit... weird still. As far as I know myself, I've been quite lonely for quite a long time. It's not that I can't take it, but... the feeling of never having something is one thing, having something and suddenly everything was gone, that feeling is another.

Yesterday was really one tiring day alright... It was actually OK until that BITCH showed up, screwed up my mood, here and there. But superbly fortunatedly, she didn't turn up for the lecture, THANK GOD she didn't.

Who's da bitch? Ain't telling. If you all know what's happening with my assignment, you'll know.
Enough of that. Things got a lil titsy bitsy better, when I finally bought my FFXII. Shoulda bought last year but... ah forget it.

TODAY, haha, today. It was just a lil lecture time. I came a lil bit earlier, used to it b'cause if I come late... place very hard to find. Sat down with the bunch as usual. But weirdly, I felt somewhat empty. Empty inside... it's been awhile since I felt this way. Since in the lecture... till on the way back home, that feeling never stopped. I felt like... crying. Yea... crying.
Lol I know it sounds weird but, I really felt like crying it out for loud. For no apparent reason.
Was it just a normal feeling? Or am I really sad about something?
Weirdly, I was actually sitting alone you know. Chloey asked the guys what's up with me. I acted as if I didn't hear anything. Michelle also asked why I was so quiet.
I kinda feel relieved I guess, that someone still cares. Well, MAYBE still cares.

I still feel like crying... though things just happen as the way they are...
Thanks a lot guys...